Inner Thoughts Chapter 4

Previously on Inner Thoughts :

" Listen fahad wayed t3bana broo7 anam" she faked a smile simply leaving to her room and i just stood there staring at her...

What was happening? all i knew that i think i've fallen for her for real this time!
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Our eyes met then she turned her gaze away continuing her way to a couple of girls who were sitting on one of the benches !

I sighed walking away when I saw Mohammed and ziyad friends of mine !

" Hala wallaah bfahad" Mohammed grinned, greeting them !

" shfeek m5tfi ?" Mohammed continued

" Ensha'3alt shway "

" Yazeen elzeen bs " ziyad suddenly said staring at someone behind me making me turn to look and he was staring at the group Reema was in!

" Meen? " Mohammed said understanding him

" 4eek Eli sh3rha bnii g9eera, labsa scarf aswad" He said,Staring at Her, I then realized he was Talking about Reema!

" muzzaa! Tt7dooni ajeeb rgmha ?" Ziyad said and I on the other hand try to keep calm, I didn't want to start a Fight with him!

" at7daak 3ad shklha Thgeela " Mohammed said staring too, she felt like someone was staring at her turning around then quickly turning her gaze to the other side

" Ga3deen t'9aygoonha" I said my voice getting higher staring at both Mohammed and ziyad as they both Gave me a look Eli "shfeek ent" !

" A7bb elmt'9aygeeen Anaa" ziyad said Making sure that she hears what he said and she did !
It was so Obvious That she was getting uncomfortable leaving the Group of girls and getting in the building !

" Shfeeh el7eloo za3laan " he said following her but I stopped him slightly pushing him, I was filled with Anger that I was going to explode any Second.

" Ma Tshoof enha mt'9ayga esta7 3la Wjhk" I shouted

" Shfeek ent , Shklk Mshbkha w moo m3lmna " he winked thinking it was a joke!

" Esta7 3la Wjhk ya ziyad " I said pushing him to the ground making everyone stare, again I wasn't able to control my anger!
That was one of my Bad habits.. I had anger management!
Even though I was keeping it under control for the last month!

" 5eeer enshallahh !!" He got up and punched me and we started punching, Mohammed came trying to stop us but he couldn't !
I have to say I was in pain but I couldn't stop, I didn't want her to feel uncomfortable and he was making her feel that way!

" Yaa Ibn elkaaalbb " he shouted kicking me .. People came separating us holding me away from Ziyad, he had bruises everywhere!

" A55 Yal7a8eeeer " I shook my head staring at him with Anger in my eyes.. I could've Killed him although halkaalb isn't worth me going to Jail!

Mohammed calmed me down and me a bag of ice to put on the bruises I had after they took him away..Thinking about what just happened and how I couldn't control myself.. I could've killed him!!

" Kaan Wdi bs ykoon mootah 3la ydii 4alkalb " I said pressing my Palms together staring blankly at the floor..

" Hadii bs ma ystahal " Mohammed said when sawsan Came staring at me and Mohammed in shock with books in her hand and her hair up in a bun.. She had makeup on, Full makeup actually !

" Sh9ayer?"she said sitting next to me on the bench

" Wsh Jaybk el7een enti?" I snapped at her, I wasn't In the mood for her and her silly games

" Haww Shfeek Fahad ma galat shy " Mohammed said telling her the reason behind my bruises and my bleeding lip, I just stayed there with my palms pressed together and my eyes widened as I kept thinking!

I got up and left them when Mohammed came running to me placing his hand on my shoulder making me stop and turn to face him " n3m?"

" 5lna nroo7 nshoof movie shrayak? "

" wallaah Mali 5lgg "

" Yallaa fy movie Jdeed 7loo elsa3a 8 w n9 ybd2" he said trying to convince me and I finally agreed leaving to my flat and once I opened the Door of my apartment, it hit me !
My mother and sister were coming to visit next week !
My mother is going to freak out if she saw me like this and then she's going to stay worried for a long period of time..

I threw myself on The couch closing my eyes and clearing my Mind from simply everything..
I Got into a fight with my friend because of a girl I barely knew !
If it was another girl I would've done that she's not any different !

No you wouldn't if it was Another girl you would've Took her number instead of him Fahad ! The voice in my head said

No I'm not like That anymore I Changed!
I had a Really dark past like most people..
But I changed I'm not the same person Anymore..
I will never be him again, I will never be a player again!
I was a Known Player back in Riyadh that's well one of the reasons I came here!

I fell asleep on the couch and had a horrible nightmare, it was about Reema and it was also one of the worst nightmares I had !
Et3wa4t mn eblees washing my face and taking a quick shower getting into some clothes and leaving to the Cinema !

Once I got there I saw Mohammed with a bunch of guy , I was happy that ziyad wasn't there!

They greeted me and we got in watching the movie Gi.joe or something like that !
We decided to play cards in my apartment Since I had the biggest apartment, we ordered From a fast food restaurant called hungryJacks!

We went back to my apartment, we were Around 6 we were all Saudis except for two one was from Qatar and the other one was from Kuwait, I and 3 of the guys were playing cards and two were playing Playstation mostly FIFA!

We sat playing cards when Rakan yelled "laa2 ya5ii ma y9eeer " staring down to his cards obviously talking about the game !
We kept playing until Meshal he was one of the guys playing the Playstation!
He started walking in circle taking the bottle of water from The fridge!
" Reema alX ?" He said alerting me, every one of the guys turned to look at me!

"Shklh m5aweeha w mb gaylna " Abdalrahman said hitting Rakan with his elbow with a smile!

" Shd3wa Abdalrahman malh Da3i t6l3 klaam 3n Elbent" I faked a smile getting up

" Ee Malha d5al elbnya " Tariq said

" wsh Jab katbha 3ndk ajal?" Abdalrahman said staring at me with his eyebrow raised

" we had a project and she was my partner and I took her book by accident " I said, Reema shouldn't be talked about in this kind of way and even if I ever actually fall in love with her and I mean Fall in love not just a silly crush and tell her that she would probably reject me!

I took the book from meshal's hand getting in my room and throwing it on the mahogany Bed of mine!

The day came to an End, Mohammed was Too tired to go home so he slept on the couch in the living room!

I woke up the next day, the sunlight blinded my eyes coming from the window, you Could hear the birds since it was early!

I did my daily routine, adjusted some clothes on thinking that it was cold waking Mohammed up and leaving after making sure he is awake.. It was too hot so I got up again and once I opened the Door I heard him talking on the phone!

" Eee okay 7beebti "
" Sawsan Ya Galbi esm3eeni bkra n6l3 Elyoom mb fa'9i wallah "

I was Shocked, Really shocked actually ena how would Sawsan be Mohammed's girlfriend when she's always throwing herself on me? That would be a bit unfair to him!

" 6yb yallaa bye " he laughed closing the phone, staring blankly at the window !

" Mohammed tra 7ar fan97k ta54 t-shirt mn 3ndi badal ma tlbs eljumper " I said getting into my room and changing my clothes into some black shorts and a t-shirt!

" You heard me right ?" He said leaning his back to the door changing into one of my shirts!

" well that depends" I said throwing myself on the bed continuing with " tra elbnat mb l3ba, t5yl i5tk a7d yl3ab 3leeha" I said

" Look who's talking" he sarcastically laughed reminding me of my past!

" I know that I was a player but I changed"

" how did you change? W b3deen I actually love her, I actually love a girl for the first time " he said

" I'd rather not be reminded of my past" I said getting up when he stopped me placing his hand on my shoulder!

" Fahad " he said making me mumble a " ha"

" Wlaa shy 5la9" I watched him put on his shoes leaving after that and heading to Starbucks to take my morning coffee !

I finally arrived there getting in and ordering my usual waiting for my order and that's, that's when I heard her soft beautiful voice it came like a melody to my ear saying " one black coffee please " turning to look at her and that's when our eyes met !

She never looked prettier with her brown wavy hair down on her shoulders naturally, she had her sunglasses kicked back !

" Wha-what happened to your face " she gasped pouting at the bruises I had !

" well i got into a Fight , it wasn't pretty " I frowned pressing my teeth together as I looked down at her.. Meditating her!

" Whaat ?? Why?" She shook her head pressing her palm to her forehead.

" Long story and I'd rather Not talk about it !"

" Okay okay "she said throwing her hands in the air

" so how about we take our coffee and sit down for a little while?" I asked hoping her answer would be sure !

" Okay " she smiled crossing her arms over her chest as I took my black coffee and she took hers!

" you're having a black coffee too?" She smiled pointing

" Eeee I usually have black coffee "

" mee too " she smiled a half smile as we both headed to a table at the back taking our seats and talking about random things until I brought up the subject about my mother and my sister coming!


" 9ijj Cham i5t w a5o 3ndak?" She asked taking a sip of her black coffee

" 2 older brothers and 1 younger sister "

" Cham a3marhm?"

" Bandar 3mrh 33 w bader 28 w Ana w b3deen Deema 3mrha 18 w enti ?"

" Ohh, Ana Im the third one ! 3ndi 2 older sisters w 2 older brothers! "


" km a3marhm?"

" 7mani he's the oldest 30, b3deen soha she's 29 b3deen Maryam she's 24 b3deen Ana b3deen Fahad 17" she said

" Ohh Fahad smyi you must be lucky to have him 3shan esmh Fahad " I joked laughing watching her laugh

" what are you going to tell Your mother about the bruises?"she asked

" Madri I'm hoping ena yroo7 before she comes " I sighed watching her get something out of her purse it was some kind of makeup !

" wsh 4aa?" I backed away without feeling!

" la t5aaf shfeek it's just foundation to cover up the bruises " she said putting some on her little finger !

" Laa2 I won't be putting makeup I'm not a girl !" I exclaimed

" Haww 3adi come on " she slightly pushed my hand away putting it on the bruises I Had covering them as I stared down at her with a smile plastered on my face she looked up once she was done with a smile on her face!

I leaned down and kissed her that's when she atomically turned red " Fahaad! Shfeek !" She nearly shouted as I let regretful because of what I did !

" I'm sorry! I couldn't control myself " I got up following her then I held her from her wrist stopping her and making her turn to face me!

" laa 9ij 3aad? I Barely know you Fahad Madri keef ttjr2 enk you go and kiss me !" She shouted leaving me with my never ending thoughts, I was full of regret..
I should have never done this!
Est'3frallah ! I couldn't resist it, I just couldn't..