Inner Thoughts Chapter 6

Previously on inner thoughts:

"a7bkk " I said , she just froze she wasn't even blinking, thinking why did I say that? It's not the perfect time !
But I can't do this anymore .. I actually love her, I can't help it that I've fallen in love.

She stole My heart And I won't be able to take it back.. I not only love her but trust her more than anything, Madri all I can say is el7b mn Allah!

" But i don't "

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My face went entirely pale once she said those words, I didn't know how to React I just froze there staring at her whilst putting my hand on her shoulder..
I felt Sad, I felt like I'm nothing To her !
Like well I don't know how to describe that feeling I had because it was indescribably depressing !
She kept staring at the ground not a word came out of her mouth..

" why?" I said Without even thinking

" Why? You think that every girl is supposed to fall in love with you right?" She snapped at me turningher gaze to look at me once again slowly pushing my hands away from her shoulder!

" No I was just hoping you would love me as much as I do " I said getting up before I left she stopped me by her shocking words!

" you're a player how do you expect me to believe you" she coldly said looking at me in disgust m

" Was" I turned around sitting on the chair once again as she stared at the window

" Was ? Once a player always a player " she said not even Turning to look at me..

" No you're wrong , people change I used to be a player that can never control his anger but now Im In love with only one girl .. A girl that id like to call my wife in the future " I said sighing

" I'm sure enk Glt el7chi ha4a to a billion of girls before " she finally turned around facing me, Tears filling her as she tried her best not to let that tear drop!

" I swear to you ena you are the first and only one I tell this to because I truly love you can't you just except that!"

" I can't because nothing proves to me that you changed gbl Cham yoom you told a girl I know that you love her " she crossed her arms over her chest sitting in silence shocking me more but not only was i shocked but I was angry!

" Gooli Ly meen hyy w ajeeb lk Elbent mn sh3rha w nshoof wsh btgool " I shouted then lowering my voice a bit so people wouldn't turn to look at us!

" it's not only her a9ln I never loved you"I held Into her hand

" Moo '3roor mni bs I know that deep down you love me but you're to afraid to let go of your fiancé "
I said mb '3roor mni bs I needed to tell her that she has to let go Of her fiancé in a totally different way.. She has to move on!

" 6yb maybe you don't like me and you would never want me to be your husband, what happens after that? Mthlan gooli Ly el9dg i4a jak wa7ed wld Nas w 56bk btwafgeen?" I stared at her as I watched her pause for a second then shake her head in response..

" Leeesh? Because you're scared to let go of your fiancé that wants you to move on!"
She just looked at me in disbelief maybe because everything I said was true or maybe not because of that!

Reema's point of view:
I couldn't believe his words they were all true, he was explaining my situation perfectly !

* Flashbacks*

I was sitting next to his bed with my head down I felt depressed, miserable seeing him like this !

Wahab my fiancé has been in a coma for almost a week now.. i was losing hope of hearing his voice again, Losing hope of everything !

" Reema " he said startling me but bringing joy into My heart and drawing a Smile on my face !

" Wahaab " I cried in happiness slowly holding into his hand, he never looked Weaker, his face never looked this pale.. He had already lost all of his hair!

" Reema abeech tw3deni ench ma twgfeen 7yatch 3ndi w troo7een w tkmleen drastch, one of us survived that doesn't mean the other one's life should stop " he weakly smiled and I weakly started crying while he wiped my tears with his soft hand!

" Lw enti Fy Mkani Shno btswen, nfs elshy mo Ch4i? btgooleen Ly nfs el7chi"

* End of Flashbacks *

" if you really loved me Fahad Prove it and I'm sorry if I was-"

" A bit bitchy?Mean? "He said

" yes Im Sorry I just miss Wahab" I smiled hugging him even though I knew it was so wrong I just needed to hug someone!

Back to Fahad's point of view:

I was so Surprised and so happy at the same time, this girl Is so mixed up She is suddenly hating me then she goes and hugs me? But I liked it every bit of it to be honest..

I hugged her tighter until she letted go that was a sign that I had to let go so i did !

" So does that mean you love me?" I grinned slowly leaning my head to my shoulder acting silly trying my best to make her laugh and lucky for me I succeeded she laughed , her laugh was so cute Eli lmn t'97k a'97k 3la '97ktha!

" your laugh is So cute !"

" excuse me sir can you fasten your seatbelt we're going to land soon" the kind lady said with a smile on her face !

" Yalla Ashoofch b3d chm Dgeega " I laughed getting up

" wayed 3ajeeb elkuwaiti accent 7gk" she laughed .. I went back to my mother unfortunately she was awake and she might have Showered me with Questions !

" knt Fy el7mam " I lied sitting down and fastening my seat belt turning to look at Deema she had this look on her face Eli " I know you're Lying" in other words " trani Gaf6tk"!

I mumbled a " what" out watching Deema throw her hands in the air, I shook my Head in response waiting for the plane to land!

After a couple of minutes we were seated in a taxi heading to our hotel, it was near Sydney harbor Perfect!

Sydney harbor hoo nfs share3 elest8lal mafi syarat w k4aa

We arrived at the hotel I got my own room so did Reema, omi w Deema shared a room!

" esm3oo let's meet Fy ellobby after an hour" I said as I watched them nod then leaving after that..
they went to their rooms which were so far from ours!
No I did not do this on purpose I just couldn't find a room except for the one next to mine!

" Cham r8m '3rftk?" She asked as I looked down at her she was so short but so cute, she had her hair up in a bun, she had a scarf hugging her neck and a jacket on her shoulder as usual she was so irresistibly Cute!

"8977" I mumbled the number staring down At the room card in my hand then looking up again searching for my room!

" Ana 8976 " she turned to look at me with her left eyebrow raised in suspicion , I shook my shoulder with This look on my face That said " I had nothing to do with it"


" of course it's just a coincidence that our rooms are next to eachother" she said opening the door putting her foot in so the door wouldn't close gazing at me !

" What you're right it's just a coincidence" I threw my hands in the air watching her laugh.. " sure " Leaving me and getting Into her room !

I leaned my back to the door staring blankly at the ceiling shaking my head and thinking this girl changed my life in so Many ways.. I love her

I was startled by someone opening the door it was her !

" haww Fahad? Shfeek?" She asked

" ma feeni shy bs m3yi yft7 elbab " I lied.. Getting the card out of my pocket whilst grinning in a Silly way!

" 36ni elcard " she said opening her hand waiting for me to place the card in her hand.. I handed her the card as she tried opening it but failed cause she had it the other way around.

I held into her hand from behind turning the card around as I felt her soft hand and the door opened !

" I thought you said it wasn't working " she stared up at me , Ya2allaaah she looked so innocent!

" it did now , 9dgeeni ydk feeha brka " I smiled slowly backing away from her..she had her head down mumbling the words
" yalla Ana ast24n" she left , she was probably a bit shy? What did I do that would make her get shy I thought.

I got into my fancy hotel room throwing myself on The big neat bed of mine staring at the white ceiling.. I was tired from our flight even though it was only a one hour flight!

I then got my lazy butt up and took a quick shower dressing up then heading to the balcony meditating the beautiful view of Sydney it was indeed a beautiful city.. I love it here !!

I turned to the right and surprisingly Reema was sitting talking on the phone and I could hear her clearly..

" Ana wayed t3bt, Wdi arj3 "she said pausing for a second.. She didn't know I was here..

" shfeech lazem Aswi t7aleeel, A5af they were wrong when they said I was cured " I was so shocked What was she talking about? Cured from what? I felt like something just hit me..
I felt sad knowing that she was sick in the past and that she thinks she is still sick..

" 5la9 aklmch b3deen m3 elslama " she said closing the line Then realizing that I was there and that I maybe have heard every word She said.. Words that made me think, That made me get into more Thoughts.. I was confused !

I was trying my best to smile and fortunately I did.. She just smiled back but it was so obvious that behind her Gorgeous smile alot of Sadness settled , it was So obvious that she wanted to cry !

" 5la9 labsa?" I Shouted going to her balcony there was just a small door between the two balconies.. I could get in her room if the door was open !

" Eee !" She shouted back

" T3ali open the door" I said

" No " she shouted back I sighed in response "then I'm going to Jump " I laughed

" at7daak" she said heading to the balcony with her hands on her hips she stuck her tongue out at me hiding her sadness, her depression!
I jumped and laughed at her "shfti keef " I said wiggling my eyebrow whilst leaning my back to the wall as I watched her laugh!

" Yalla let's go they're probably waiting for us" she Said brushing her hand with her other hand..

" Ee 6yb bs can I ask you something before we leave?" I asked running my hand through my Brown hair waiting for her answer !

" Sure" she said biting her bottom lip with her gaze on the ground!

" What did you mean by ' Was cured ' Were you sick?" I asked, I was really worried of her answer!

" I never told you the story of how me and wahab met right?"
I was surprised.. What did she mean by met? She knew him before they were engaged and how was that?

I shook my head as my eyes widened !

Reema's Point of view:

* Flashbacks *:

I was Scared afraid of what will happen!
I got in the Cold hospital room back in the United Kingdom and surprisingly there was a guy sitting ready for his session..
It showed on his face that he was as scared as i was!

They told me to sit down , minutes passed as they stuck the needle in my hand.. I felt terrible, pain was all I felt !

" It's your first time isn't it?" He startled me making me raise my head and look at him in confusion

" yes how did you know?" I Questioned

" I guessed , I'm Wahab by the way" he said as a smile grew on his face!

" wahab? That's a Kuwaiti name " I gasped

" Yes how did you know ?" He said from the other side of the room as we stared at each other!

" because I'm Kuwaiti"

"9ijj sh'hal 9dfa"

* end of flashbacks *

" I don't understand , what was wrong with you?" fahad asked

" I-I-I can't " I ran remembering everything tears streaming down my face ,I couldn't stop they were coming down my cheek uncontrollably.

back To Fahad's point of view :

Regret hit me once again cause it's all my fault.. I shouldn't have asked her That Question!
I ran after her ,calming her down trying my best not to hug her because that always leads to no good!

" Reeema 5la9 7a- Forget I ever asked you that question " I palmed my forehead watching her cry, her eyes were puffy, her nose was red from all the crying !


" You know what I can't do this, Magdr Ashoofk k4a w ma Aswi shy " I said hugging her tight as I calmed her down playing with her brown hair..She cried her tears on my shoulder with her head on my shoulder!

" I lovee you Reema , I really do!! I can't See you like this at34b a7s ena bsbti you're crying!" I hugged her tighter and surprisingly she hugged me back feeling her soft hands !

I finally freed her from my arms staring at her wide brown breathtaking Eyes!

" You're so beautiful w ill never let You go I promise Reema just give me a chance " I said when a tear dropped from her eye quickly wiping them away!
She nodded and smiled !

I got up opening my hand for her hand to be placed In mine.. Feeling her soft hands taking her to the bathroom to wash her pretty face !

" e4kri Allah w wash your face , ill be waiting outside "I said leaving the room waiting by the door with my back leaned to the wall and my palms pressed together after a couple of minutes we were in the elevator next to each other , I stared down at her hand holding it and placing it in mine !

She looked up at me and smiled, I smiled back well the moment had to be ruined !
The elevator door opened and Deema appeared in our faces , I quickly letted go of reema's hand!

" oh Reema w Fahad knt b6l3 ashoofkm t25rto " she said a bag in her hand !

" Eee w Ana nazel Shft Reema "

" Eee yallaa bsr3a" Deema said holding into both my hand and reema's pulling us out of the hotel..

" shway shway " I exclaimed, she finally letted go of Us once we reached the street There was only a street between Sydney Harbour and our hotel!

We crossed the street and we stood thinking where should we go now!

" shraykm nroo7 restaurant Nakl b3deen nroo7 ly elcinema and Watch a movie ?" I suggested I may have said it faster than the usual

" shway shway E7ki Fy el3rbi faj2a 3rbi w faj2a English" my mother said palming her forehead

" 9aja 5alti " Reema laughed, I repeated what I said before in Arabic but slower this time and they went with my idea!

We went to an Italian restaurant ordering..

" Tra bs y3ni abi A4krkm ena my birthday on Thursday f3adi Tjeeboon Ly mthlan cake or a gift I accept gifts!" She grinned tlm7lna w k4a.. It Was Tuesday!

" Tlm7een Enti w wjhk " I laughed hitting her playfully

" Chub Fahad ,Ma3leech mn a5ooch Im going to bring you a cake and a billion of gifts if you wanted honey!" Reema said winking at Deema

" Galbii enti bs mb nfs Fahad " Reema stuck her tongue out at me whilst rolling her eyes, I laughed at her silliness in response !

We Talked about random stuff, My Mother felt tired after having her meal so she wanted me to take her back to the hotel and on our way mother like always opened the subject about marriage!

" Ya wleedi meta Wdk ttzwj 5la9 Bagi lk shway w tt5rj , Ana Fy Bali w7da " she said

" Yumma wallaah twna 5li bader ytzwj awal b3deen y9eer 5eer " I sighed

" ma 3lay mn bader Ana f8dt elamal Feeh el9ra7a.. Shoof Reema shzeenha w bnt Nas " she said

" Yumma 5la9 lmn at5rj fat7eeni Fy elmw'9oo3" I smiled .. We finally reached the hotel I made sure she didn't need anything and then I left immediately Going to the Cinema hoping that the movie haven't started yet !


I found Reema and Deema talking but they stopped once I arrived making me Curious!

" 3sa ma t25rt 3leekm?" I asked looking down at both of them.. Reema was blushing which was weird !

" La abd " Reema laughed covering her mouth with her hand.. I ignored the way they were acting sitting down when a familiar face passed by!

Her face was so familiar she was so Hot!
She had hazel eyes, short wavy light brown hair that fell naturally on her shoulder, she was tanned.. Her pink lips were big and full!
Well I Wouldn't call her hot, she was attractive !

Then it hit me , I remembered who she was , Zaina !