Inner thoughts: Chapter 19

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Previously on inner thoughts:

Fahad: enti etrki eljwal w t3ali t7t ga3ed astnak 

I did what he told me and I got down, I didn't understand a thing of what's happening then it hit me it was him all along !

I was surprised, kind of mad but so happy..

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The smile on his face never left, neither did mine..

I was the happiest person on earth, all my worries had vanished away once I saw him sitting there with a smile on his face looking hotter than ever..

Back to Fahad's Point of view:

" Liked the surprise?" I smiled looking down at her

" loved it "she smiled Her eyes on the ground, she was blushing And I couldn't help myself but smile

" Ana Wdi a3rf keef ma shkeeti" I laughed looking at her, we were left alone in the room to talk for a few minutes maybe, her family are really Overprotective especially when it comes to those kind of things  so we can't be alone for more than five minutes at least not until the mlka..

" Ashoofk elesboo3 eljay  " I grinned after we talked and it was time for me to leave

" Enshallah" she bit her bottom lip staring at me

" Yalla Fahad " a voice startled both of us Making me move away from Felwa..

Let's skip to one month later we were engaged w Elyoom bnmlk a5eeran

Felwa kanat Kl shy abeeh, kanat shy kbeer blnsba Ly!

Mlkna that night and we went out for dinner..

She grinned showing her pearly teeth I reached for her hand and smiled at her saying " I've got a surprise planned for you after the wedding "

She lit out a laugh saying" I must say You're full of surprises"

" I know " I laughed continuing with "2 weeks left " I smiled and once I looked up I saw the last one I'd expect to be here, I got up " shway w arj3 6yb" I said heading to him

" Hala bFahad A5r wa7ed tw83t Ashoofh hena " i said and incase you were wondering Fahad reema's younger brother!

" Hala wallah Ee jay hne m3 elahl" he said smiling " I can see that you already moved on"

" Ee it has been 3 years w felwa Zoojti " he sighed patting my back " Reema would've wanted that yalla m3 elslama " 

I turned around and went back to our table with those thoughts in my head what did the conversation we just had even meant!

" shfeek?"

" mafeeni shy" I sat back down she kept talking and well I kept listening 

to her talk, Reema was the only thing  I could think about..

after a couple of hours I went home and i was looking for some papers I opened a drawer I barely opened and once i did i found that picture of me And her, me and Reema...

I got my suitcase And started packing, I knew that this was going to hurt her but i had to do this!

Felwa's point of view: 

A week passed and next week was my wedding and still no sign of Fahad, He suddenly disappeared w jwalh mgfl and I felt sad ma kan Ly nfs Aswi ay shy not the wedding, not the dress, not anything..

Part of me didn't want to believe that Fahad would do this to me but the other part knew That It was too good to be true..

He was too perfect to even be real!

I Should've known that he was lying since the beginning

I headed down and saw my mom sitting on the sofa watching tv..

I sat down on one Of the sofas, my eyes were all red and puffy from crying..

" felwa 7beebti adg 3la omhm nl'3i elzwaj?" I quickly shook my head Saying " la2 byrj3 enshallah, Fahad ma r7 ytrkni akeed 3ndh 34r" 

I didn't know what to think I just didn't want to let go of him..

 

I guess knt mt3lga Feeh bzyada..

You know that feeling you get when you want to scream your lungs out but you can't.. That was exactly how I felt that night!

I kept crying And crying all night until I fell asleep..

I woke up in the middle of the night with someone knocking on the door, I got up looking at myself at the mirror I looked horrible " Meen?" I yelled 

" Try guessing " his deep voice, Id recognize that voice anywhere that Beautiful voice!!

I quickly got in the bathroom washing my face and fixing my hair, I was wearing this pjs Tfshl el9ra7a so I wore black leggings and a t-shirt putting my hair up in a messy bun finally opening the door to see him looking hotter than ever..

I was trying my best not to smile but how can I not smile when my husband/love was standing in front of my room with flowers in his hand in the middle of the night? 

" N3m?" I said Mswya nfsi thgeela w m39ba w k4a when I'm only fooling myself I wanted to slap him so badly but I also wanted to hug him..

" can I come in? I brought pizza " he smiled...to be honest when I'm with him I feel like I'm 16 again, this wasn't the first time he showed up in front of my room or window, he's the craziest man I've ever seen..

I felt butterflies in my stomach and then I remembered that I used to get those when I was 16, I had a little crush on my friend's brother and every time he'd talk to me or smile at me I would get those

" Felwaa" 

" hmm" I snapped out of it and went back to reality " can I come in?" I just nodded in respond

He stepped in handing me the bouquet of red roses, I rolled my eyes and took them from him as he was settling down I got to smell those roses and smile a little trying not be caught smiling, I know I was acting like a child but I just couldn't help it 

I had mixed emotions I was mad a bit sad but so damn happy..

He grinned saying " aren't you going to sit down and have a very late dinner with me? Omk galat ly enk Ma t3sheeti" whilst patting on the floor

" well I am hungry" I sat down next to him taking a slice of pizza but then I couldn't continue to eat because he kept staring at me!

" what?" I looked up at him 

" W7shteeni" 

"Hmm wa'9e7" I mumbled he held into my hand and I pushed it away looking in his eyes with hurt, anger and confusion..

" 6b wallah w7shteeni" he leaned closer 

And I exploded " Ttrkni b3d ma mlkna w kan b3d esboo3een zwajna la dgeet wla shy w jwalk 7'9rtk mskr w Tarkni hena afkr wsh sweet, 9ar lh shy" I said, he was looking down And I continued talking with " we were so close enna nl'3i kl shy you don't know how much pain I was in while you were away " I started tearing, I couldn't control myself they were coming down my face and I couldn't stop them, I couldn't stop myself from crying!

He pulled me in his arms calming me down until I was calm he started playing with my hair " Adri tkrheeni w ma agdr Aswi ay shy 3shan a3w'9k 3la Eli sweet'h bs 3ndi 34r " he sighed 

" t4kreen that book I was going to publish and I told you it was a true story well I went to Dubai to publish it-" I cut him off by pushing myself from his arms, I didn't want to hear anything even though I needed to hear what he had to say but I was too stubborn to hear him out!

" Fahad e6la3 brra " his eyes widened " Esh?" He said 

" E6la3 brra you left me for a book before our wedding " I cried pointing at the door then crossing my hands whilst looking at him with tears coming down my face..

" it's not just a book" he got up getting closer to me 

" And this wedding is not just a wedding it's my wedding, it's our wedding" 

" b6la3 bs I'm still your husband, 6b3t lk ns5a mn elktab Abeek bs tgreenh" he handed me a book ,   'inner thoughts' was written on the cover..

I took it and watched him leave my room I closed the door behind him and crawled in my bed and well cried and cried until I decided to read the book..

Ma Lgeet nfsi Ela Garya n9 elktab even though Im not a books person, I'm more of a movies person tbh..

I ended up with tears not because of what happened today,because of the book because what he had been through was alot and I couldn't just hear him out..

I felt guilty and Sad Allah yr7mk Ya Amal if that was even your real name..

What was going to happen? Was this the end of a beautiful marriage or the begging of it?..