Inner thoughts Chapter 14: stuck in the past

 Previously on inner thoughts:

After chatting with my family I Got to my room and took a Shower i had only pants on ,I then threw myself on the bed and kept staring at the ceiling when someone Opened The door, I didn't bother my self getting up Cause I knew that it was probably Deema but it wasn't 

Wait what Zaina?

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I Closed my eyes And then I realized that Zaina was standing there in my room, I quickly got up and kept staring at her " wsh Jabk" I glared  at her , she slightly laughed 

" bs jaya agoolk 3n e5tk Eli mb Jayeb 5brha " she Smiled 

" Zaina wsh md5lk beetna bkbrh a9ln" I got closer to her

" I'm your sister's friend remember?"

" Zaina What are you trying to reach bl'9b6"

" Consider me fa3lat 5ayr Abi agoolk ena E5tk 6la3t m3 nawaf akthr mn mrra" she grinned

" you want It to happen again Don't you? You want everything that happened in the past to happen again 97" I sarcastically laughed

" Haa? ill Gladly make it happen Again" I laughed, her face expressions totally changed !

I threw a couple of perfumes on the Ground breaking them, Zaina started backing away from me

" Haaa Zainaa happy now?" I shouted getting closer to her

" Fahad lw sm7t don't "

It's happening Again..

Her voice from the past kept repeating in my Head :

" Fahad Ana 5ayfa"

" Fahad lw sm7t rj3ni"

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Zaina quickly Got out but instead of Zaina being here,  Deema was!

" Fahad calm down shfeek " she slowly said, it was so obvious that she was scared, Scared of and for me..

"Shfeeni Ha? La w 6l3ti t6l3een m3ah b3d ween Bader 3nk" I Shouted 

" keef 3rft?"

" mb Mhm keef 3rft elmhm ena enti keef tsween k4a Ma t5afeen Allah?"

" Fahad its happening again kl shy 9ar awal Ga3ed y9eer el7een"

*Flashbacks*

A Few weeks after what happened with Zaina knt raye7 l'3rfti when I heard Deema say " Magdr 7beebi"

" la tz3l bs- Ee of course I trust you" 

" 5la9 yalla bye Galbi " she closed the phone and I came crashing in, what I just heard made me loose control..

We were never Close me and Deema, we barely talked!

" meen Tklmeen?"I shouted

" 9-9deegti"

" 9deegtk Ha 36eeni eljwal Ashoof" 

She held into her phone, she kept shaking, her eyes were full of tears!

Slowly giving me the phone I pulled the phone and opened the recent calls  'Khalid' was the last one!

" 3lmeeni 9deegtk 9ar esmha Khalid" it was like I was a whole new different person..

Alot of people had dark pasts but mine was different, I was not only a player but a jerk to my family and everyone especially Deema!

" Fahaad-" I cut her off by slapping her, I felt so ashamed of myself!

The whole family gathered around after they heard all the shouting

" Shsalfaa " abooy said 

" agool lh" I looked at Deema that was Chocking with her Tears!

" Fahad e6l3 brraa!" He shouted

 

" ha4i elgleelat el7ya ma Trbt" I pointed at Deema glaring at her

" Fahad Glt lk e6la3 brra"

" ya Mohammed ma ystahal elmaw'9oo3 y'9l wldk" my mother said holding my father back

" Laa2 Wldi mat mn zman, Wldi ma y'9rb e5th " It felt like I was just  stabbed hearing those words from my Own father!

I calmly left the house..

Thats when I found out the I had Anger management..

I learned how to be Calm , it have been a month I was staying at a hotel..

My mother keeps calling but I keep ignoring..

I checked out and headed home, I was kind of worried of my father's reaction though

D5lt w lgeet omi Jalsa Fy elmjls, 7beet ras'ha w t2sft " 7beebi yumma Leesh tswi k4a, kl yoom astnak trj3" she started crying..

I wiped her tears away whilst kissing her forehead 

"Ana t'3yrt yumma Fy ha4a elsh'har" it was summer vacation so I didn't have school or anything..

" Allah y7f'9k" I smiled back

I fixed things with my father and Deema, I wanted her to feel that she has an older brother to rely on even though bader w bandar moo mg9reen..

*end of Flashbacks*:

" Im sorry " I kissed her forehead 

" Fahad ymkn Ana '3l6t eni 7akeeth bs ma gd 6l3t m3h" she said 

" Adri w Ana wathe8 Feeki bs bnt elkalb Zaina k4bt 3ly"

" Zaina t3rf Zaina?"

" Ee we were really close "I sighed

" but she was my friend "

" She never was your friend Dee ha4i w7da ma t5af Allah "

" Fahad "

" 3yoon Fahad " I smiled

"Did you really love her?"

" who?"

" Reema.."

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