Inner Thoughts Chapter 17:

Previously on inner thoughts:

Our love was much powerful than anything but I was weak I couldn't do anything about her leaving..

Because she did not only leave me but she also left this world..

اللهم ارحمها وأدخلها جناتك يا أرحم الراحمين..

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Fahad: guess what I'm going to be publishing a Book..

Felwa: i59 never imagined you that kind of Guy =))

Fahad: and Why is that miss felwa?

Felwa: well Mr Fahad I've always imagined you as the Guy who gets every girl he wants And well a player

Fahad: Well half of that is true

Felwa: and which is?

Fahad: ena I always manage to get every girl I want but I'm not a player well at least not anymore

Felwa: hmm 6yb bs2lk so2al w Jawbni b9ra7a 

Fahad: 6yb?

Felwa: km bnt tklm besides me?

Fahad: Umm Eee 3adi a7ki m3hm 3adi y3ni not Like Babe and stuff 

Felwa: well you did Tell me "babe" once =))

Fahad: Autocorrect..

Felwa: LOOL are you really publishing a book or is it just another Joke?

Fahad: I'm really publishing a book and it's even a real story

Felwa: Wallaah? Hmm Tktb Feeh how Perfect you are=))

Fahad: Ohhh so you think I'm perfect 

Felwa: Laa2 mb g9di k4a 

Fahad: okay Felwa, Okay

Felwa: ma Y7'9k wj3

I laughed at how I'm making her mad when a voice startled me " Fahood bklmk bmaw'9oo3"

" Hala yumma " I looked up at her kicking my head back resting it on the Couch

" Fahad mabeek t9eer nfs Bader Fy elnhaya Shoofh shayel maw'9oo3 elzwaj mn m5h tmaman" she sat next to me I knew exactly where this Is going so I said " Fy wa7da Fy Bali"

She looked at me in surprise yelling " 9dg?"

" Ee yumma " I looked down and smiled at her

" meen hy?

" Felwa alX bnt 3mti Maryam" I grinned 

" Eee ma r7 tlagi azyn mnha ya7leelha felwa 5la9 el7een aklm Maryam" the Grin on her face grew wider, I got up kissing the crown of her head heading out to the ml7g..

Bader was at work so the place was all mine for now I Lit up a cigarette and started smoking as I sat there, I've started smoking since Reema died.. I don't usually smoke in front of my mom because you know moms they get worried about nothing well especially mine..

Incoming Call: Rakan

Wsh ybi ha4a I thought picking up and sticking the phone to my ear..

Rakan: Hala Fahad

Me: Halaa Rakan 

Rakan: esma3 klna kna nawyeen nroo7 elbahrain this weekend shrayak tji m3na?

Me: Bshoof Ana w brd lk meen Byji?

Rakan started naming the guys who were coming and almost all of them were coming including Mohammed so I thought why not so 7jzt Fy hotel w kl shy w decided to call Mohammed ask him if he was fine or not:

Mohammed: alo 

Fahad: Hala 7beebi Ha sh9ar enshallah en7al kl shy?

Mohammed: Ee el7amdallah 

Fahad: Ha Ygool Rakan Btji m3na 

Mohammed: Eee enshallah Tgdr t7jz Ly '3rfa Fy Elhotel m3k?

Fahad: Eee 5la9 yalla m3 elslama

I closed the line w 7jzt '3rfa thania closing the laptop after that and heading inside I saw my mother talking on the phone then she said " yalla m3 elslama" closing the phone 

" Ha yumma sh9ar?" I asked 

" enshallah 5eer" she smiled 

 

"6yb yumma " I sat next to her whilst grinning stupidly at her she slightly pushed me " hmm?"

" broo7 m3 elshbab this weekend elbahrain"

" swi Eli teb'3ah Fahad" I got up grinning " Amooot feek Ana 7beebti enti" I kissed the crown of her head.

" roo7 trwsh ree7tk d5an tktm"

I took a shower then grabbed my phone sitting on the bed with a towel wrapped around my waist!

Fahad: weenk m5tfya?

Felwa: mawjooda

Fahad: shfeek mnfsa =))?

Felwa: abd btzwj wa7ed ma abeeh

I don't know why But it felt like A slap on the face, her words..

Fahad: give the guy a chance

Felwa: I don't even know who he is imagine marrying someone you don't know, they're forcing me to marry him

Fahad: 9dg? Why him?

Felwa: l2na kl ma yjeeni wa7ed agool la2 and my dad started giving me a lecture about people will stop knocking on the door eventually and shit

Fahad: Ana agool give him a chance and when Are you going to ask your mom about his name don't you wanna know who he his?

Felwa: la2 Mabi a3rf meen ho 3la el28l eleen elshoofa

Fahad: okay

Felwa: ya bthrk lmn tslk:)

Fahad: 39bt 5la9 asfeen lol

Nothing quiet interesting happened so let's skip to Bahrain?

Wednesday: 1:30 pm

We arrived At the hotel and got ourselves checked in I headed to my room the first thing I did was throw myself on the comfortable looking hotel bed, I closed my eyes for a second wishing Reema was here 

I miss her

I miss her smile..

I miss her laugh..

I miss how she blushes when I compliment her..

I miss having her in my arms..

I miss every single thing about her..

The beach Was a couple of blocks away from the hotel so I decided to take a walk maybe just sit there alone for a minute..

I headed there and sat on the soft sand staring at the sea..

I don't know why but I brought reema's book with me I flipped through the pages when a sudden Paper fell out of it I grabbed it and started reading the words that were written on it thinking that this letter or message was supposed to go to her fiancé..

You know when you love someone so much that their voice is still stuck in your head and you just can't get it out and you're reading something they wrote and you're like listening to their voice reading it to you..

Yes by everywhere I read it felt like she was reading it for me..

But why?

Those two words kept repeating themselves in my head As I stared at the sky..

My thoughts were screaming but my lips remained silent!

And still why do things have to be so complicated?..

Why can't life go the way we want it to?..

Why can't we just find everything in its right place..

Why can't everything just be perfect?

Life would be much better..

Life would be easier..

But then I found the answer it was right in front of my eyes but I was too blind to see that we had to learn..

If everything was so perfect we would have never learned from the past, we would've never took chances..

We would've never learned from our mistakes and our decisions..

That's what everything all about

Trying, learning and taking chances..

So don't ever give up..

-Reema

I got up and headed back to the hotel after talking to felwa I took a shower And got down waiting for Mohammed, he wanted me to wait for him..

I sat in the lobby when a guy started approaching me an unfamiliar guy to be more specific

" Fahad alX ?" He asked reaching for my hand, I got up and shook his hand saying " Ee m3leesh meen ent?"

" Ana Fahad a5o Reema alX " he smiled making me confused worried about what he has to say..